Embrace

Five-Minute-Friday-4 I just joined a new writing group called Five Minute Friday.  Every week I will get a new word delivered to my inbox and have to write about that word for five minutes and then post.  I am looking forward to a new challenge.

Embrace the glorious mess that you are.  ~ Elizabeth Gilbert

I am having some difficulty embracing the ways my body seems to be deserting me.  First it was arthritis and creaky knees that need to be replaced eventually that some days made it hard for me to walk long distances.

Next it was the achy joints and intense fatigue which led to a diagnosis of fibromyalgia.  Just when I was getting use to the changes that brought with it –

BOOM!  A pelvic fracture.  My body is beginning to spontaneously combust.

This latest diagnosis of osteoporosis has me longing for a do-over.  Could I have prevented some of these things from happening? I don’t know for sure, but I do know that I need to embrace the changes or I won’t be able to move forward. I will be stuck in a place of what ifs.

 

Thanks to…

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I saw this format on Tricia Ebarvia’s post last night and decided to try it myself.  I took a different twist and added the third line.  I want to thank some of the influencial teachers in my life, some of whom are now deceased but never forgotten.

A teacher affects eternity; s/he can never tell where his/her influence stops. ~Henry Adams

Thanks to Sister Rosathea, my elementary music teacher,
Who taught me the magic of music and putting on shows,
which started me on my way to becoming a music teacher.

Thanks to Mr. Rossi, my high school string bass teacher,
Who taught me not to make the same mistake twice,
which helped me land a place in the All-City Orchestra
and the chance to perform at the Academy of Music.

Thanks to Sister Claire Immaculate, one of my high school English teachers
Who taught me I could have a passion for both music and English,
Which led to publication in my HS Literary Magazine.

Thanks to Sister Regina Gormley, my college piano instructor,
Who taught me the value of stories and conversation,
Which carries over to my story-telling to my students today.

Thanks to Mary Buckelew, Director of PAWLP,
Who taught me to have confidence in myself as a writer,
Which found me in the Summer Institute and completing a graduate degree.

Thanks to all the students I have met over the years,
Who taught me that the little things really are appreciated,
Which keeps me grounded and focused on what is important.

Bones

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To thrive in life you need three bones, a wishbone, a backbone, and a funny bone. ~Reba McEntire

Well, I finally have a reason why I am starting to spontaneously combust — I have osteoporosis! I am not really surprised, after all, when you have a pelvic fracture without a fall suspicions start to arise.  Since we affectionately call my mom “the incredible shrinking woman,” I should have probably taken her advice more seriously over the years.  Take your calcium.

Seven years ago I had a bone density test and came out with flying colors.  Everything was great.  I guess that gave me a false sense of security.  Now I have taken my calcium on and off over the years, but the pills were just too big, and I had a difficult time swallowing them, and remembering to take them.  What really was my demise, I believe, were the years that I had an undiagnosed vitamin D deficiency.  I have since learned the multitude of benefits taking vitamin D.  This I take faithfully.

So, now I am on a road to change.  I am taking my Citracal gummies everyday.  I should have tried them years ago; they actually taste quite good. Next, I will be scrutinizing my diet and begin calculating the amount of calcium found in each morsel entering my mouth.  Once I finally get off the walker, I will have to start doing some weight-bearing exercise.  That will be tricky with my arthritic knees, but I have to find a way.

My advice to you is to stay vigilant and take care of yourself.  You only get one body and when it starts to break down it is no fun.  Who knows, maybe I still would have had this osteoporosis even if I had taken more calcium and vitamin D, but it’s never too late start putting me first and being the best this aging body can be.

Black and Blue

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The soul becomes dyed with the color of its thoughts. ~ Marcus Aurelius

Getting dressed in the morning can be a real “treat”

when you’re trying to match your pants to the socks on your feet.

Why does the color navy look so much like black?

I thought these were blue, but I might be off track.

 I even asked my husband, “Are these pants navy?”

“Let me see,” he said, “I think so – well maybe.”

You need just the right light to know the exact hue.

So, I worried all day – Are they black or are they blue?

THEY WERE BLUE!!

  

 

I Will Not Give Up

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Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.  ~Thomas Edison

This slice comes from an app I have on my phone called Transform Your Life.  Each day there is a quote (and for those of you have been to my blog, you know I am all about the quotes!) and beneath that is an assignment for your journal.  This is today’s quote and assignment.

Today I am making a list of things that I will not give up on even though I am not too sure how close to success I am in each area!  These are in no particular order.

  1. I will not give up on having good health.  Even though I am still using the walker and am not sure what is going on exactly, 58 is too young to be old and decrepit. I want to be a grandmother who can actually do things with her grandchildren.
  2. I will not give up on losing weight.  This is a battle I have won and lost numerous times over the years.  I need to look at one meal at a time, one day at a time and not sabotage myself.  It is about feeling good and be healthy, not about a size or a number.
  3. I will not give up on publishing a picture book.  I have a couple of ideas that are in the works.  I just need to go ahead and submit them.  Stop being afraid of rejection!
  4. I will not give up on any of my students.  Some days are a challenge. Some students are a challenge, but each of them is worth the extra effort it might take to help them discover their gift – their voice.
  5. I will not give up on trying to make a difference.  I may only be one person, but my actions can be examples for others.  I always want them to be examples of goodness, and kindness, and compassion.
  6. I will not give up on being the best version of myself, whatever that looks like.

Password Perils

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Treat your password like your toothbrush. Don’t let anyone else use it, and get a new one every six months. ~ Clifford Stoll

How many passwords do you have in your life?  I don’t know about you, but I have decided I have too many.  A couple of years ago, I bought a “little black book” at Barnes and Noble and began to log all my passwords onto its alphabetized pages.  It was made especially for this task and was more detailed than just using any old address book. I am the bill payer at my house, and my husband use the computer only to check mortgage rates and car prices.  If something happened to me he would not have a clue how to pay bills online. He is definitely a paper check and postage stamp kind of guy.  I thought putting all the passwords in one place would be helpful to my daughter who would take care of all these things in the event I could not.

At home, Google saves most of my passwords online, and I don’t even have to think about them.  Things like my AOL email account, Facebook, and Twitter appear without me having to put in a password.  That’s great when I am working at home on my desktop computer, but when I need to access these sites on another device I am at a loss.  So, then I end up changing the passwords.  The problem is, I forget them before I get home and change them in my book. 

I know that the experts say that you should not use the same password for multiple accounts, but it is so tempting!  I think that the plan for this weekend is to go through the entire black book and change all the passwords.  I am glad that they are written in pencil! 

 

What a Writer Needs

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All good writing begins with terrible first efforts. You need to start somewhere. ~Anne Lamott

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What a Writer Needs
(is) Room to Write
(so make a) Small Change
(by looking through) A Different Mirror
(then) Escaping Into the Open
(riding the) Western Wind
(and) Crafting a Life
(that will make) Lasting Impressions

This book binding poem was inspired by another slicer.  I have read so many posts this weekend I forget which one I “borrowed” this idea from.  Thank you, whoever you are!

 

 

 

 

 

Good Morning

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daybreak

However long the night, the dawn will break. ~African Proverb

Dawn is breaking.

The sun’s rays

gently awakening

the tree tops,

spreading slowly –

from top to bottom

until the entire tree

is bathed in yellow

ready to say,

“Good Morning.”

 

My Notebook

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Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart. ~ William Wordsworth

My notebook is coming apart at the seams.
A little like me it seems.

It has hardly been written in or read,
But its demise has me seeing red.

When I bought it, it looked really great,
but now on my nerves it does grate.

It’s not like it’s just a small piece
If it were then I could have peace.

I don’t want to leave it bare,
but this rip is more than I can bear.

To abandon it doesn’t seem right,
Within it will I be able to write?

Oh, I’ll keep it and stop my whine
As I pour myself a nice glass of wine.

 

 

 

 

Waiting for Inspiration

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The quieter you become, the more you can hear. ~Ram Dass

I choose to sit in the silence

away from the idle talk – meaningless.

In the silence, I am alone with my thoughts,

Alone yet not,

Thinking yet not,

Waiting for vision, clarity,

a knowing of what to do,

where to go –

waiting for inspiration.