Your perspective will either become your prison or your passport.Steven Furtick
Covid has taken its toll on my life in many ways. Thank goodness my family and I remain healthy, but I don’t feel “well” in other ways. I have lost my creative drive. I cannot focus on a book for pleasure and my “free time” is often spent watching TV – Hallmark Movies, reruns of Shark Tank, and Guy’s Grocery Games. I realize that these programs need very little real attention since they are a set format, which is good because my attention span is minuscule. I am not faring much better in my writing life either as my last blog post was almost three months ago.
A few days ago, one of my former students posted a video message on Facebook, and the student became the teacher. Michelle Trifiletti. regularly shares experiences from her journey through life with her followers. One of her followers made the statement that she wished she had her life “figured out” the way Michelle does. Michelle took to Facebook to assure us she doesn’t have it all “figured out;” she just has a different perspective. Michelle went on to explain that “things don’t happen to you; they happen for you. They are all in God’s plan to make us into the person we are meant to be – to learn the lessons we are supposed to learn to be able to help the people we are supposed to help.”
Michelle made me realize that it all comes down to trust – trust in the journey – trust in the process. As adults we want to be in control; we want to plan and execute the plan; we want to get a certain result. You would think that by the ripe old age of 62, I would know that control is overrated and plans are meant to be changed, but sometimes we need a reminder.
So today I am changing my perspective. Maybe I wasn’t languishing in a “creative desert” but rather in a short “hibernation” resting up for a restart and a new adventure. Perhaps all the reasons that I couldn’t focus on reading or writing were happening for me so I could focus on other things that needed my attention. Regardless, I am going to stop trying to figure it out and remember to trust the process.