Do you constantly judge yourself, compare your life to someone else’s, engage in harsh self-talk? Unfortunately, I do.
It’s not that I am unhappy with my life because I am blessed beyond measure. I am married to my high school sweetheart, and he loves me more than I love myself. Our children have found their soul mates and have created beautiful families, and my grandchildren are my heart. Then what’s the problem?
Women by nature are nurturers, but often we forget to nurture ourselves. I am an emotional person, and wear my heart on my sleeve. I like to think I am patient and compassionate with my students and colleagues, family and friends, yet I don’t bestow the same grace on myself. I have a conversation with a friend or read something online or hear things on TV, and right away I begin with the “I should or I should haves.” I always find a way to turn random thoughts into negative ones directed at myself.
This week as I did my 5-4-3-2-1 week in review my #1 (one goal for the week) was to take better care of myself and move more. The past year has had me stuck, and now is the time to get unstuck. Being part of this Slice of Life writing challenge is helping my writing life to start to grow, but even here I compare my writing to others; I look at others’ comments and think I have nothing better than that to say. Ridiculous right? So this week I am going to focus on self-awareness instead of self-judgment and exercise patience and compassion on myself. Wish me luck!
I am participating in the Slice of Life Story Challenge for the month of March. I will be posting every day this month. It is sponsored by twowritingteachers.org. #SOL21